Looking for that missing part of my brain. Dislikes giving advice to people. Feels like my heart may be on the right side of my body. Thinking I hate the town I grew up in. Wish I had an old fashioned sail boat with nets strewn about it, and crates of bananas on deck as well. Ran into the first bear that wasn’t afraid of me, and all I could think was, “wow, you’ve got some big tits for a bear. And you’re not afraid of me.” Hoping Santa Cruz will be all sunshines and smiles. Slowly drifting away from coffee as there is a cold floating around here. Don’t know if there’s a video game that could every make me feel like a middle school child again. Likes to run and jump when the weather is nice. Sometimes I still day dream about being a rock star, and then realize I wouldn’t like it. Loves Christmas, but who doesn’t? And I’m not getting drunk on whiskey again if I’m spending X-mas with the rents. I get sweary. Hand-me-down-clothes are still my favorite. I want to discover Noah’s Ark some where in the mountains and climb and play all over it for years. I want a day off just about every day. I try to treat my Xterra like it’s a space ship, and when it looks like shit I think Han Solo would be proud. I think I broke my right hand’s middle finger, and am not sure how that happened. Young girls will always talk about love, and old ladies will always day dream about it. Wish I had a tittle like Sir or Knight or Count or Duke or Lord, but then if I did I would insist that you just call me “steve” or “steven”. Wish I could understand everything I read. Wish I could make everyone (well most) people happy. Am greatful for my health, friends, and family. I should write my Grandma more. Isolation would be nice if I could decide when and where.